The expedition

09 Dec

For about a month and half I started on this journey, a journey of self-discovery. I felt that I had just been gliding through life and having the same shit day in day out, this would mean that all the dreams I ever had would remain just that, DREAMS!!! I would get stuck in race of rats, become one myself and start waiting for my retirement so that I can get to ‘enjoy’ pension. Being the introvert that I am, whenever something starts bothering I just recluse, fall back into my cocoon and start searching for a solution and that my friends is what I have been doing and still doing…

I began with looking within, looking for a reason greater than me, something that would motivate, drive and psyche up my will to look up to each new day; in short I started in earnest looking for my purpose. I sure did look and even tried asking other people what they thought my purpose was!! But nothing, I found nothing! So the next best thing was then asking friends what their purposes was so that maybe I could compare or even copy, that is if one can plagiarize a purpose!! Guess what, many told me they had nothing! That was supposed to calm me with the “tuko wengi” mentality, but it didn’t, the desire just fuelled the more. It became an obsession; I would bug everyone I knew about their purpose including my grandpa! But the answers I got were so diverse and different from what I have a ‘feel’ for that I wouldn’t copy them…

I started pushing my limits one by one, doing some really crazy stuff, but won’t get into the details here ;-). I also got back to reading, I had given books a big break I might even write about Jane Austen’s ‘Persuasion’, Jack Kerouac’s ‘On the road’ and J.D Salingers ‘Cather in the rye’ and other several titles am hooked to soon but that is a story for another day. The big break to my search came when I went for mindspeak on 26th November where Seni Adetu was presenting; this guy had more of purposes than a purpose! It was like when you are lost and trying to find your way in this dark alley and then someone shines a huge light that you begin tracing the pathways to your destination 🙂

I am yet to find myself, but with a little help here and there things are a bit clearer and I feel I am near to getting to my goal and when I do you sure will be the first to hear about it. Enough about me, now do tell what your purpose is? What makes you look forward to each new dawn? I am all ears and would love to hear about it 😉


Posted by on December 9, 2011 in Breaking Loose!, Comfort zone., New waters!


8 responses to “The expedition

  1. savvykenya

    December 9, 2011 at 2:53 pm

    Making life better for other people is a good purpose to live for! Some days though, i just drag myself out of bed, dejected and wondering why I’m alive. Other days I’m happy even without a purpose.

  2. fiestycat

    December 9, 2011 at 3:09 pm

    ahem! Purpose is indeed a big thing to think about. i bet you think i cleared my throat to say something profound, well i wont. I just commend you on starting that journey. All the best my friend 🙂

    • mackel9

      December 9, 2011 at 3:18 pm

      Thank you cat

  3. mackel9

    December 9, 2011 at 3:13 pm

    At least you have an idea about it Savvy 🙂 but the second point on dejection I think I know that feeling only too well

  4. hmwendamwenda

    December 13, 2011 at 1:56 pm

    i lost my purpose somewhere along the way. wat shall i do?

    • mackel9

      December 13, 2011 at 1:58 pm

      You need to join me on this expedition then…

  5. MumBi (@TheMumBi)

    April 16, 2012 at 10:42 pm

    erm *cough cough* make space for me too. What my dream’s are made of vs what i enjoy actually doing.. are as similar as chalk n cheese. How is it that some things give so much pleasure/life staisfaction and others.. that you’ve been waiting your whole life to do.. well.. you actually end up doing them coz they are on your “to finish list”

    for a long time i’ve been on autopilot.. which is great.. coz i cant even be bothered when people come and go in my life.. (they were just taking up temporarily available space_ but i think what im more scared of.. is that I will NEVER find this “thing” lol and live my whole life doing things.. but now THAT THING!! SO yarrrr.. make some room for my tushie, Im coming with! 😉

    • mackel9

      April 16, 2012 at 11:52 pm

      Welcome aboard Mumbi 🙂


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